It's coming out again

Starting to lose interest, again
Losing faith, being forgotten by friends
Carrying flags up the hill
The water in my head is beginning to spill
Out
Through my mouth
In the form of word vomit
I remember being happy, you shoulda saw it
I'm tired of living in a box
From day to day, it's just changing socks
The sky doesn't seem blue, the whole world is gray
I couldn't even tell you the time of day
I'm tired of being hurt and mislead
I don't even want you to read this, I just need it out of my head
I want to wake up to the sun in my face
I want to start walking a slower pace
I want to be slow and enjoy my life
Instead of praying to nothing for it to pass by
I want to live in a coffee cup
Not a box, not with sorrow, not throwing up
The lessons I'm learning are taking me back
Maybe you could help me into this life I lack